hazy nostalgia of feeling so sad and yet so happy

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i want to feel that again, but can't

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my sunken eyes desperate to go home

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and yours blank and unchanging

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i will never feel comfortable.

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your spectacle in the tides of my love

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heartbeat palpitations i lay in bed in this euphoric blank stare

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the warmth in the sheer repetition of your nonexistent rhythm turned into limp motions

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confirming to your disatisfied heart that the thing you loved is still in your heart's deepest corner

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I Will Never Feel Comfortable

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i don't know what to do.

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sensations of 25k hz penile discomfort

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shimmering dry throat with bittersweet semen

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all i do everyday is masturbate and stare at my laptop screen doing nothing

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i wish i could break every fucking mirror that lied to me

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exploding head syndrome as i try to sleep at 5am

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a nightly resignation into your living quarters

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Campanella

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i am so frustrated with my ugliness, i want to be loved but i do not want anyone to have to love something so pathetic. i masturbate, i sit in silence, i get angry, and i try to find comfort in things that i used to adore so much, but no longer find anything but a reminder of my own self.

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