I love everything I fucking do is going wrong. I can't do shit. Yet I still want to do everything on my own because I'm scared of letting people help me, what if I get hurt? What if they use it against me? I feel weak. I feel like a failure. I don't want it to happen again. I hate myself and my MISERABLE FUCKING LIFE SO FUCKING MUCH. I'm better off fucking dead. I'm not doing shit for people. I'm not enough and anyone who tells me different, give me sepcific fuckig reasons and not just "but you'rre a good person". Cuz I'm not a good fucking person. I've doxxed someone because they deadnamed me. I've used someones fucking trauma because they were annoying. I've tried to kill people several fucking times. I'm a messed up fucking CUNT. I don't deserve to fucking live. Nothing I do is ever good fucking enough. Everything I do is wrong in some way or another. Everything I do is just... wrong. I'm still so fucking confused to why people think of me as a friend, they shouldn't. I'm fine on my own, always been will alwasy be. I can handle this alone. It's a fucking pity the knife isn't sharp enough LMAO. I hate how I fucking overthink at any minor fucking inconvince. I hate how I cry over people. I hate I'm never strong enough or good enough. I can barely eat, I've eaten like twice or max three times in the latest week, I feel like I'm fat and that I don't look good enough and starve myself because of it <a href="https://www.last.fm/music/Gareth+West">Read more on Last.fm</a>. User-contributed text is available under the Creative Commons By-SA License; additional terms may apply.